Storm has ended. Now we have this calm period again. Nobody is moving or leaving anything. M is just relieved that F isn’t giving her the silent treatment anymore. And that’s it. Everything bad has been forgotten.
It’s the same pattern that goes on over and over again. I’m beginning to get bored I must say. Where as my Father is a narcissist, my Mother is too codependent. They are like match made in heaven. They belong together. F never apologize no matter how badly he treats other people, where as M forgives him everything anyway. You can imagine what this pattern did to us children when we were little and 100% reliant on these people. It wasn’t the healthiest environment to grow up.
S said, she’s is really starting to get bissed off too. She has given M safehouse facts and helped her to start a work search. She has also told about our problems and much more to other people which isn’t necessarily the best way to solve this.
The glad thing is my wounds have slowly started to heal in the middle of this shit. Life doesn’t hurt so much anymore. Apparently it has been good for me to stay away from the hot spot although it has also made me feel a bit outsider. Pre-school and day care starts next week. H goes back to work and I’m starting my “new life” as a college student and finally getting something else to solve than diapers and laundry and the problems in our family.
No matter what, life goes on. Moving on doesn’t solve anything but I guess it’s our only option.